A Poet's Blog: Roger N.Taber shares his thoughts & poems...
Thoughts and observations by English poet Roger N. Taber, a retired librarian and poet-novelist.- "Ethnicity, Religion, Gender, Sexuality ... these are but parts of a whole. It is the whole that counts." RNT [NB While I have no wish to create a social network, I will always reply to critical emails about my poetry. Contact: rogertab@aol.com].
Sadly, a bad fall in 2012 has left me with a mobility problem, and being diagnosed with prostate cancer the same year hasn't helped, but I get out and about with my trusty walking stick as much as I can, take each day as it comes and try to keep looking on the bright(er) side of life. Many of my poems reflect the need to nurture a positive-thinking mindset whatever life throws at us.
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/R._N._Taber I have just posted another video-poem on You Tube relating a recent visit to St Albans n Hertfordshire, UK. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=PgiVwWtRgNg If this link does not work, try my You Tube channel and search under title: http://www.youtube.com/rogerNtaber Built between 1403 and 1412, is the Clock Tower, the only medieval example in the country. From the beginning it had a mechanical clock, a great rarity at that time. As the Abbey also had one, this was probably the reason for having the same. Indeed, the Clock Tower itself seems to have been intended as a visible statement of St. Albans' civic ambitions against the power of the Abbot. It was both a look out as well as a curfew, ringing out the times when people had to be indoors "covering the fire". From 1808-1814 during the Napoleonic war, it was used by the Admiralty as a semaphore station. This was operated by a shutter system and could help relay a message to or from Yarmouth in 5 minutes. By the 1860's the Tower was in a bad way and was nearly demolished. The restoration in 1864 was supervised by Sir Gilbert Scott. In 2004, the roof was rebuilt with improved public safety and access. Given how much of our lives are governed by the time of each passing day (and night) it seemed an appropriate addition to the blog. THE CLOCK TOWER The o’clock is ‘now’ that once was ‘then’ and now is but history So stands an old clock tower, monument to its (and our) yesterdays, todays, tomorrows; more power to the abbot, ringing out curfew at a time of birth, death, war, and more… Enter, a bishop, charged with paying God and St Alban fair dues to any with the time to stop, listen, and choose For the time is now that once was then and becomes ‘ours’ In time and space, listening out for an o’clock sure to keep us safe, bring peace, point us through each day with the mechanical indifference of hands signing us up to such existence as we know now once was ‘then’ ever signalling the ways of humanity, its history, multiplicity, duplicity, and obsession with eternity Copyright R. N. Taber 2013
Readers may like to know that I have just posted a new video on You Tube. It is the first of several videos (and poems) mostly shot in the old market town of St Albans in Hertfordshire. There is another (of an old clock tower) and one of a three lovely willow trees converging on each other that will follow over the next week or so. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=B0e3HyezWsY
If the link does not work, try my You Tube channel and search under title:
Recent feedback suggests some of you cannot always access You Tube so you can also watch the video here. (See below)..
For those of you who have asked about my charity walk last weekend, my friend (and Y T cameraman) Graham and I walked a half marathon (13.1 miles) through the night and early hours to raise money for prostate cancer research. Between us, we raised over £700 so are well pleased. We also managed to complete the course in 5.5 hours, not bad given that I will be 68 in December. I may do it again next year so long as hormone therapy continues to prevent my prostate cancer becoming aggressive...mind, feet, and spirit willing!
My friend Andrew and I went to a Lowry exhibition at the Tate Britain the other day. I know a lot of people don't care much for Lowry, but I share his interest in everyday life as it IS so can easily relate to his work; stark and dour, many of his paintings may be, but he saw an inspiring beauty in the haunting ugliness that so often characterizes everyday life and urban landscape.
Now, about the video/poem…
The Roman City of Verulamium slowly declined and fell into decay after the departure of the Roman Army in AD 410. However, its ruined buildings provided building materials to build the new monastic and market settlement of St Albans which was growing on the hill above, close to the site of Saint Alban's execution. In the Norman Abbey tower, you can still see the Roman bricks removed from Verulamium.
Much of the post-Roman development of St Albans was in memorial to Saint Alban, the earliest known British Christian martyr, executed in AD 250 (the exact date is unknown, with scholars suggesting dates of 209, 254 and 304). The town itself was known for some time by the Saxon name 'Verlamchester'. A shrine was built on the site of his death following Emperor Constantine's adoption of Christianity as the religion of the Roman Empire. In the 5th century a Benedictine monastic church was constructed.
St Alban’s cathedral (formerly St Alban’s Abbey) – officially the Cathedral and Abbey Church of St Alban – is a Church of England cathedral church at St Albans, England. At 84 metres ( 276 ft) its nave is the longest of any cathedral in England. With much of its present architecture dating from Norman times, it became a cathedral in 1877 and is the second longest cathedral in the UK after Winchester. Local residents often call it ‘the abbey; although the present cathedral represents only the church of the old Benedictine abbey.
The abbey church, although legally a cathedral church, differs in certain particulars from most of the other cathedrals in England: it is also used as a parish church of which the dean is rector. He has the sane powers, responsibilities and duties as the rector of any other parish.
Yet again, I am indebted to my dear friend Graham Collett for the video and subsequent editing. Unfortunately, time and weather have prevented us from uploading any new material to my channel until now. We hope you will enjoy both video and poem.
Regular readers will know that I am not a religious person although I like to think I have a strong sense of spirituality albeit taken from nature rather than any religion. An appreciation of beauty, though, is all-inclusive, and this pantheist poet feels no less entitled to be as appreciative as anyone else.
As for LGBT issues and religion...there would be no need for anyone to be made to suffer any sense of guilt or inner conflict were the leaders of all world religions to but practise what they preach about peace and love to all humankind instead of being so selective about how they choose to interpret their Holy Books.
Whatever their religion, all LGBT people need to bear in mind that the chances of God being a homophobe are zero since homophobia was invented by a humankind unfit for purpose in that respect; religion should be an open, not closed door to any who choose to go there. Nature has taught me that, and I choose Earth Mother.
Some
readers may be interested to know that I have posted Chapter 1 of a new serial,
Catching Up with Murder on my fiction
blog. Hopefully, readers who enjoyed Predisposed
to Murder will also enjoy meeting up with many of the same characters and
discovering how they first came together.
Meanwhile…
It has always struck me how curious it is that some words used to describe human nature can mean different things to different people in exactly the same circumstances. Not surprising, though, since everyone's take on life (and people) is different depending on how various socio-cultural-religious, age, economic and political factors conspire to directly affect our personal lives, and therefore our opinions. (Whatever, we need to be wary of rushing to judgement and/or being fooled by a sweeping take on stereotypes; there is much to be said for 'judge not lest ye be judged.')
This poem is (another) kenning or 'Who-am-I?' poem.
CHAMELEON
I'm not always where I should be
and there are times you will find me
wearing
the face of human cruelty,
lashing
out at anyone who dares
stand
in my way, stamping on them
as
if they were but vermin, ready
to
excuse, even glorify any choices
I make to mask feelings of inferiority (indeed, the more fool, me.)
Rarely assuming parts conventions
would have me play in the world
or
in such corners of the human heart
open to anyone to view who cares
to curry favour with me if only to be
rewarded in turn, with such gestures of rank or position as best serve
anyone at listening in, hoping to learn
how not to be duped again
I'm not always a villain of the piece,
now and then accepting applause,
with
due modesty, ever taking credit for acting beyond any call of duty,
such as openly acknowledging my sexuality or
services to humanity as nature intended me to provide, rejecting a darker side that I confess lurks just below my surface
Call me chameleon, for good or bad,
walking tall, running scared
Copyright R. N.
Taber 2010, 2019 [Note: An earlier version of this poem appears in On the Battlefields of Love by R. N. Taber, Assembly Books, 2010. a later version that appeared on the blog in 2013 has since been revised again.] RT
In
response to this poem, someone once complained that I 'seem to be suggesting that
being gay is as natural as God intended.' Well, the poem lends itself
to various interpretations (as a poem should) and if
that's theirs, I am delighted to have at least giving a
religious bigot some food for thought.
When it
comes to the various Holy Books and the attitudes they convey towards gay,
bisexual, and transgender men and women, I know many people feel the same as
me; much has been lost in translation or, as often as not, deliberate
misinterpretation. Too many people have too great a fondness (reliance even) on a stereotyping which not only confuses important issues but, worse, is put forward as a truth, Time and again, I have heard people trying to justifying an attitude that beggars belief, not least because it has its roots in stereotypical caricatures, especially when it concerns LGBT issues. I am not disputing everyone's right free speech, but let's at least get our facts right, yes?
We all
occupy a mother’s womb. I will never believe the love there is conditional to
our turning out the way some parents’ preoccupation with various
socio-cultural-religious conventions try to impose as. indeed, they have done very
successfully since the beginning of time. Thank goodness for a natural capacity
of the human heart for rebellion against such constraints; it may well have
lost a good few battles and will surely lose a good few more, but is as sure to
win the war for common humanity as day
follows night.
It was once put to me by a work colleague that poetry - no more or less than other art forms - is all about self-indulgence. I beg to differ. Poetry - no more or less than other art forms - is all about finding out who we are; nor is it a definitive 'we' or first person persona for, as the metaphysical poet John Donne points out, 'No man is an island entire of itself...' (Meditation XVII)
Whatever, be it in reading prose or poetry, appraising a painting or a person, the chances are few if any will come to the same conclusion, and even greater are the chances of any one person reaching the right one; we are all made up of many parts. The arts - among which feedback regarding my own suggests poetry is often considered the poor relation - attempt to reach at least some of those parts, the sum of which makes us who we are.
There can be no perfect interpretation of mind-body-spirit, but we can at least try to lose as little as possible in translation, and allow for human error ...
LOST IN TRANSLATION
When people ask where I came from;
I
answer, my mother’s womb,
so why am I so haunted by a sense
of having been somewhere else,
distant,
unknown, as if I’d crossed
mythical
territories of time and space
just to find my way here?
When others ask if I have a ‘real’ goal
in life, I confess I’m never sure
which
doors are left ajar just for me
to take a
peep (our choice, enter
or not) and may let a still, small voice
out of time and space persuade me to try
the safer (better?) path
Sometimes I am even accused of sitting
on some metaphorical fence
rather than explore secret passages
of the
mind, and the doors open
to tease me, dare me enter, have a go
at translating the ages-old hieroglyphics
lining Mother’s
womb
Yes, I
have a ‘real’ enough goal in life
if
prompted by a poet’s feeling
for wrestling with the hieroglyphics
between
womb and tomb,
writing
up an alternative autobiography
of my life and death than trust local
graffiti
on doors kicked shut
Copyright R. N. Taber 2007; 2016
[Note: An earlier version of this poem appears in Accomplices to Illusionby R. N. Taber, Assembly Books, 2007.]
You don’t
have to be in the media spotlight to influence people, even society, for the
better; big or small, every contribution counts and we can all make one.
Setting a
good example can make a big difference; it may start off as a small ripple on a
BIG pond, but it will spread. Much the same can be said for setting a bad example, of course, and we would all
do well to remember that. At the same time, in various socio-cultural-religious
respects, different people have different takes on what constitutes good and
bad. I guess all we can do is engage with and trust our better, kinder,
instincts. (At least the meaning of kindness is universally understood if not always much in evidence.)
Ah, but if
we can see a ripple spread, we rarely
get to see what difference our words and everyday behavior make. Take good
manners for example; they seem to have gone out of the window here in recent
years, but just saying ‘please’ and ‘thank you’ to someone may well encourage
them to do the same and so on, making more of us feel just that little bit
better, even hopeful that this sorry world of ours might also take a turn for
the better any time soon. Our differences, too, can make a difference to the much divided world in which we live and its splintered societies..by pulling together and creating a better world to pass on to those who deserve better.
This
(revised) poem is a kenning. Like many of my later poems, this one is the more
mature version of an earlier piece. So why publish the earlier piece? Well, it
seemed a good idea at the time, and like many good ideas feedback has since
shaped it into something much the same yet significantly different.
THE UPBEAT HEART
How will
it all end,
if they
have their way, clerics
and politicians
pulling me
in all
directions?
Will some
fallen angel
pick on
me and drag me away
or will a
gentler spirit
have
mercy, find a place for me
come Judgment
Day?
Shall
wolfish death
delight in
tearing us apart
or strike
swiftly
and
cleanly at the human heart,
lost doves
find their way,
defy infernal
dark, fly eternal light
or (conveniently)
consigned
to
mythology, out of human mind
and
history’s sight
Not ours
to know the how,
where, or
when, but be glad to give,
learn, unite
in Love and Peace
than
passively wait Death’s turn
with us while
our ‘betters’
play
politics with common sense,
and the
better, kinder, part
of human
nature gets on with making
all the
difference
I am that
up-beat of the human heart
that gives
humanity a head start
Copyright R. N. Taber 2004; 2013
[Note: This
poem has been substantially revised from an earlier version published in my collection The Third Eye by R. N.
Taber, Assembly Books, 2004 and subsequently in Ygdrasil:, a Journal of the Poetic Arts, May 2006.]
A boy at my school was being taunted about his grandfather
being a 'cowardly conchie' during the First World War.
When I
asked my mum about this she told me that the lad's grandfather had not fought
in the war but acted as a stretcher bearer, frequently on the front line of
battle, and was no coward.
She also explained to boy Roger (I would have been about 10 years old at the time) that people who hold
fast to their convictions rather than surrender to demands to the contrary are no cowards anyway.
(Image taken from the Internet)
STRETCHER BEARER
I wear a
badge of courage
few can
see who look for medals
on the
chest
or a
victory sign to oblige the press
anxious
for a story,
but less
interested in mine;
I’m no
hero, not me,
shooting
holes in the glory
of a
devotion to duty
I wear a
badge of courage
few can
see who look for scars
won in
battle
or,
better still, a crippling injury
that will
treat me
to free
beers at local bars;
for me,
only looks
and words
drawn like swords,
politics
of all wars
I wear a
badge of courage,
will join
heads bowed in gratitude
and pride
at the finest marble
monuments
to its tears, the price
(no
choice?) of freedom,
so many
would have us believe,
if not
the likes of me
left
stitching up the glory
of a
devotion to duty
Under
fire, I, the stretcher bearer,
Front Line
conscientious objector
Copyright R. N. Taber 2010
[From: On the Battlefields of Love by R. N. Taber, Assembly Books, 2010.]
Sadly
there will always beprejudiceandbigotryespecially in some parts of the world
that are slow to get real about Human Rights, but elsewhere as well.
All we
can do is lead by example, try to educate the less enlightened among the
heterosexual majority in our own little corner of the world and trust that
the ripples we make will spread, become waves and cross oceans. It has happened
before, is happening even now and will always happen.
Yes,
there will always be bigotry and prejudice but be sure it won’t always get its
own way. People, on the whole, are better than that, although it may take more
time than we would like for those some to realize that. Others, of
course, like die-hard evangelicals and thoserepressiveregimes around the world who
put self-interest above common humanity, will always pursue their
own agendas...that is, for as long as the rest of the world lets them get
away with it.
We can but resist the worse aspects of life as best we can and try, each in our own way, to live up to the legacy that every good parent leaves his or her their children - love. Love, in all its shapes and forms will see us through just about anything life throws at us.Sadly, some children miss out on that, but love is open all hours, we only have to make time to look and learn... if we so choose. (Something else my mother taught me and which, especially as someone with no partner to share the ups and downs of growing old - I am 70 now - I try to live up to in my heart and pass on in my poems.)
The best oral traditions, as passed on in all walks of life, are more than just stories, they are a legacy of love that - should we care to listen and learn - encourages us to bond with a common humanity and play our part, each in his and her own way; a posthumous as well as present consciousness serving us ... if we will but let it.
PAGES IN A FAMILY HISTORY or GHOST, (ANOTHER) WORD TO THE WISE